head like a hole and where i'm at now....

well....alot has happened...the conference is coming up this weekend and i'm very excited. i really need to get away and get fellowship time with everyone. i have been going through alot of stuff and been failing alot, but i'm not giving up. i had talks with several brothers and the Spirit has spoken and up lifted me. i finally feel like i'm getting a foot hold on where i am and need to be. this started as a different post but so much has happened that i have more to say. "head like a hole" the nine inch nails song brings up alot of good point. we take in so much everyday that we don't even realize. and if we don't pay attention we end up putting things before God... that has been happening to me and it has brought nothing but misery... my focus on other things has led to my lacking in what is true...listening to rock the flock the other day Tim spoke of doing everything for Jesus....sweating, working, serving, bleeding, suffering(with purpose)....all inall for Him....because of my lacking the Spirit convicted me... and i am grateful for it...before i was saved i would go on and on and not really realize what i was doing...now as soon as i'm in the wrong i know it...it takes action to change it and we are not alone...being a christen is putting effort forth for Christ....it can be no other way...once theres no effort, then theres the face plant of justice... i am just grateful for this body of christ and for all the love that we show each other... i've been feeling the pulse of the body and i know each of us have alot to deal with....just remember to keep your heart and ears open...listen to what is said and what God has to say... i know sometimes we don't want to here were wrong, but just learn to accept it...we're going to be wrong alot...i have along ways to go and i won't make it there with out all of you... god bless you all and much love....


glory to God

patrick j nielsen