through sickness and warfare...the Lord always prevails

well... my time in treatment is now over. i got done yesterday. now it's time to go out and search for a job yet again. my last day at treatment was blessed to say the least...when the time came to pass my coin and shell around i became very nervous. i didn't know what my peers would say or what to expect. i prayed before i even entered the room and thought of things i would possibly say after everyone had said there peace. as my peers spoke i got progressivly more nervous. alot of people spoke how they admired how spiritual i am...a shocking thing was an intern who i barely talked to said i had touched her life...it wasn't me it was God.. as people spoke i started to realize how God had used me. i was astonished how much people were effected. my thats how God works...super-naturally naturally. people that had turned there back were lifted up and others could just see the power God can have on a life. when my time came to speak i spoke of; that the only reason i'm at where i'm at is by the grace of God and what Jesus did for me and us, i told them how much i appreciated them and loved them, i admited (again) that if i turned my back on God i would go back to being my old self(drunk,stoned,dead), i told them that any error or fault was mine/of my flesh and that anything good that came from me being there was God and the glory is His, i spoke my heart and shared the thing that fills it... God's work was done and He knew my heart and intentions...the only reasoin i stayed foucused was Him and the only reasoned i errored was my flesh...but God used it all for His glory. after my graduation a lady i had talked to alot told me about her experience at (our) church this last sunday... she was very happy and spoke of how she could feel the presence of God...how she knew what to do now...i wanted to cry. she has struggled and i don't how much i helped , but i know God lifted her up and reveal things to her...this was the first time i saw her that happy. all i had to do was obey and be who iwas in Christ...and His glory was seen. i am so grateful to God for putting me there. i went through alot in my time there but for Him...it was all well worth it... amen

my time is almost done....

well... if you have been keeping up with my blogs you would know i've been in treatment(or if you have talked to me). tomarrow is my last day.... and i'm grateful God gave me that oppurtunity. i only pray that what i said and did truly glorified God and made people think about Him. i pray that all the people i met there know that i love them and that i only wish the best for them. i know my flesh had hindered me; in speech and sickness and i know i prouably made errors in conduct as well. but i know i did the best i could possibly do as a man. i know that if God wasn't there i wouldn't of even went through with it...i know that if God wasn't there it would have been meaningless...i know that if God wasn't there i would have failed to learn anything. i learned alot about being humble and knowing when to speak. i have work to do on the talking part, but it's a process. also i think i'm getting alot better on discerning people and having a better heart for all kinds of people in general. i know that the word of God doesn't return void, so i know the word is out. i've seen very amazing things that have opened my eyes and made me more grateful to be one of His. all glory of anything that has happen goes to Him and anything that was of fault or error is mine. i praise and thank God for any oppurtunity He is willing to trust me with. i know it is a process and i need to even be more patient with what i am taking in. i just need to stay diligent in reading and praying....also i would like to thank God and all my brothers and sisters who were praying for me during this time and our continuing to now(pray for my back...please and thank you), i would have never made it through all this with out your prayers and support...i am truly honored to being serving with all of you and i love you all. if today was was last day, i'd just want you to know that.

glory to God

patrick j nielsen