i suck.....

yes i suck ladies and gentlemen...i have been struggling...as you can see i'm not around at the moment. i had been having some problems and eventually started living a double life...now i am very miserable. i keep talking to God and asking Him, "what am i to do?", "You say i will be compelete?"....so much is going on in my life....family members with diseases, laziness, insanity, thinking and feeling too much, loneliness, etc... i wish everyone is well... i hope to see you all soon....pray for me and ask God to help me feed myself....

i love you all

patrick